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Dearimaginarylover,

Tonight is one of those nights. I'm going give myself permission to feel what I'm feeling. Then I'm going to give myself permission to get up from here and keep moving forward. I have not given up. I have failed many times but I have not quit. I encourage you not to. I urge you to find whatever it is to keep you going. (Remember your why.) I believe in you, but I implore you believe in yourself.

I may have F'd up a time or two. (That happens when you dont believe in yourself enough.) It happens when you allow others peoples perception of you to cloud your judgement and you cast a shadow of doubt from within. That was a lifetime ago. You were a different person then. Don't condemn yourself. Understand that you are powerful beyond measure and that forgiveness and self-love are tremendous transformational tools.

Ive learned to love myself again since. . .

I've learned to live THIS life. Built on my past failures and mistakes. I've grown through some things and growth is a beautiful (and scary) thing I am not that boy who would lose himself anymore (without purpose.)

I have traversed insanity. I have found myself. Multiple times over. I never realized I could be so much. . .